“How’s your blog?” The voice from an unregistered number asked.
How’s my blog? Oo nga naman. How’s my blog?
I should start blogging na raw. My meek reply, “Takot ako e.”
Di ko lubos maisip na instead of becoming fearless I have turned into a chicken shit coward too afraid to write anything for fear of exposing my vulnerabilities.
As if I have any. Oh well I have a lot. Pero di naman ako matapang o survivor dahil wala akong vulnerabilities. Matapang ako dahil alam ko that no matter what happens kaya kong bumangon at tumayo ulit. Kapagod nga lang.
Sabi nga ng kaibigan ko, “Akala nila ang dami mo nang sinasabi, ang dami mo nang iniexpose. Di nila alam ang sinasabi mo barely scratch the surface and you only reveal what you want to reveal.”
Ayan! So I’m blogging.
Hopefully this becomes a habit again.
Ano ba ikukukwento ko?
Ah. OK.
Diet. A few weeks back I had a bout of allergy attacks that prompted me to stop eating meat and chicken. Simultaneously I started drinking a slimming coffee that made my appetite disappear. I also started dancing and yoga due to a crazy bet with a friend that I later on withdrew.
All four combined made me lose 5 kilograms from a hefty 70 kg I went down to 65kg. Kudos to me!
Last week, I took over most of Tatay’s hearings since he was out of town. Instead of my usual sikad and tricycle bakentol files system, his driver, car and bodyguard were detailed to me. Well and the sakit sa ulo that goes with his case files too!
Naisip ko tuloy, “Maayo pa ang gasikad sikad ka sini at least wala gahilab tyan mo sa stress kag wala gainit ulo mo!” But then again asan ba at dyan din ako pupunta. Magseseven months pa lang akong lawyer and whether I like it or not the trajectory of my practice is destined to follow the direction that my father’s practice has taken. Give or take a few things that I like and do not like.
Ang pinapray ko lang that twenty years from now I will still recognize and like myself.
I’m digressing. About the diet. So because of the very stressful schedule and confident that the allergies have subsided. I ate meat. I ate a lot of meat. I’m too chicken shit to step on a scale and too tired to exercise for the past few days, I think it is safe to assume that I gained weight na naman.
Last night, karne na naman. I dismissed my 8:30 class fifteen minutes early. One, because that class is so ahead of the coverage and two because I wanted to have dinner with my friend.
We ate meat. Tenderloin was superb but the sirloin is a dentist’s nightmare. Sa pagkalanit! Sirloin? Two thumbs down! Not value for money at all.
As usual for every one word my friend utters I have twenty. Often, I wonder why I am friends with people who are so “malalalim at matipid ang salita.” Seriously, the people who knows who I really am are the tahimik type though they are not tahimik all the time naman. Yung mga tipong tahimik lang pero kapag napuno mashoshock ka na lang na ”Aba! Mabilis at marami pala tong gustong sabihin!” My sister is included in this category.
Anyways. So I go ratatatating with my issues and my take on issues and my friend gives her well thought out opinions. In hindsight, it shames me how I could monopolize a conversation but I appease myself with the fact that I have been her friend for roughly five years already. By this time she had already made a decision to be my friend no matter how crazy, moody and flippant I could get. Besides, I’m a good friend. She gets my kind of crazy but she also gets dependability.
Maldita at strict! These are the reviews that I have been getting from my new crop of students. Teller pa ng BDO nagsabi and a former student.
Oh well! Opinion ng mga bata yan. I’m not in a beauty contest anyway and vying for Ms. Congeniality.
I smell. It is a holiday and I smell. Kung pwede lang hindi maligo kapag walang trabaho yan gagawin ko pero di ko kaya ang bantot e. So I am going to end it here.
Ah one more.
My love life or the lack of it I suppose is getting complicated instead of simplier. Award!
